Moving On.

Dear Austin,

I hope you don't get mad at me for posting this, and I hope you are not angry about the things I am about to say. I wish I could say this to you in person, because you deserve more than a lousy blog post. But I have never been good at expressing myself, and you know that better than anyone. In all honesty, I love you more than I have ever loved another human being. And I wish it didn't have to end like this, but you and I both know that it is the only way. Our relationship wasn't a healthy thing. But don't get me wrong. I don't regret a second of our time together. I had some of the best memories come out of our relationship, and you taught me so much about myself. You taught me that I can do anything I set my mind to. You showed me how strong I really am. You taught me that I am actually worth something. You showed me that it IS possible to be a perfect person. You never frowned, and I loved that about you. You never hated, nor expected anything in return for giving so much. And I admire you for that. You are not selfish in any way, shape, or form. And I can't wait to see you grow into something more than you have already become. I hope you realize how amazing you truly are. You are going places with your life. Don't let anyone tell you different. You are your own person. You are truly beautiful, inside and out. I just want to tell you that I am OK with everything that has happened between us, because I know you will worry about it way more than you should. I want to say thank you for all of the amazing times. Thank you for all the money that you spent on me. Thank you for the amazing dates we went on. Thank you for the Christmas presents, the cafe rio and subway runs, and all the great times you gave me. No one could make me laugh like you could, so thank you for that, too. Thank you for showing me the world from a completely different view. Thank you for helping me to not be afraid to try new things. Thank you for all of the baseball games, and thank you for the amazing weekends. Thank you for showing me what love really is. But most importantly, thank you for being a friend. I am so grateful that that is still what you are to me. Because in all honesty, I couldn't go a day without your warm smile brightening my day. You are my whole world, and I hope you realize that you hold the key to my heart. You always will. Tell your family how much they mean to me, because you know that I won't be able to do that myself. Your family was always there when I felt as if mine wasn't. Your father is one of the wisest men I have ever met. Please listen to him and his advice he gives. Because in the end, he will always be right. Please spend more time with your mother. I know I always told you otherwise, because I was selfish and wanted you for myself, but she does more for you than you will ever know. And she cherishes every moment you spend with her. Please try and be around for your little brother more. I can see that he looks up to you, and you could make a big impact in his life if you really tried to. Tell Mitchell thank you for being such a great listener. And such a great teacher(: (He will know what that means.) Always remember how happy your step parents make your parents. Please don't ever give up when it comes to sports. You are amazing, regardless of how you play for one game. Please go through school with the same attitude that you have always had. And don't ever change how hard of a worker you have turned into. I hope you know that I wouldn't change a thing about the way we went through our lives for those seven months. And now we know what not to do in our future relationships. I hope you find a girl that fits you perfect, because you deserve nothing but the best. I am always here for you. And I mean that whole heartedly. I owe you so much, and I probably won't ever be able to give back everything that you gave me. You changed my life forever, and I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. I am not going to lie to you though, I am going to miss you as my guy more than you will ever know. I will miss when you hold me and kiss me, but the thing I will miss more than anything else, is the fact that I always knew you were there and that you loved me. But I can't wait for our future together as best friends. Because that is what we are now. And you are not going to be able to get rid of me, no matter how hard you try(: Please PLEASE always come to me with your problems. That is the whole reason I am here. I want to help you in every way that I possibly can. So again, thank you so much for all you have taught me. Never change the person you are, because you are so so amazing. I can't say enough how much I love you. But just know that I do more than words could ever explain. I love you, and I always will no matter where this crazy world takes us. You have stolen my heart.. princess(:

09/17/2010-04/25/2011

What an amazing 237 days.

Love always,

Kalen.