Detour.

So obviously I have not written in a while. I apologize. The reasons are... well... who really knows? But mainly just because I am a big fat lazy failure. It's fine. But I have decided to take a little break from the thirty day challenge because it is starting to drive me absolutely crazy. So the remainder of this post will be my thoughts on what has happened in my life for the past couple of weeks.

First things first. Drill.

Now you would think that since region is over, drill would calm down a bit, right? Wrong. It has actually gotten quite a bit more crazy. Our junior drill clinic and showcase is coming up so we have to choreograph two dances, plus the trio my friends and I are doing. Not to mention re-cleaning competition dances and re-learning camp routines. PLUS we are to provide two boys for two dances that will also be performed at the showcase. Stressful? I thought so. State games and tryouts are also right around the corner. State games should be fun. Except for the fact that we won't know if we will be performing until about... A few hours before the game begins. Not a big deal at all. Ha. Tryouts are the main thing on my mind right now though. Not because I am worried about not making the team, ( well, that too.) but mostly because we have got to expand the team... A lot. Otherwise they are canceling the drill program. So the last month has consisted of trying to recruit girls. Tryouts also mean that we lose this years team. This fact absolutely rips my heart to shreds. Unless you have been on a team as close as mine, then this will sounds stupid. But these girls are the whole reason I have made it through sophomore year. They are the reason I get up at fice every morning, and go work my butt off at drill. They are my team. My family. My sisters. And I can't imagine not having our seniors around next year. But anyways, onto the next topic.

Driving.


Just barely got my permit. I am super stoked, but this also stresses me out a lot more then it should because it means I will be getting my license soon. Which leads to one major fact: I need a car. If I want to be driving when I turn sixteen, then I need to start saving up for a car. Which means my summer will consist of three things, and three things only. Drill, work, and sleep. Goodbye social life. Which leads us to our third topic.

The Boyfriend.


Our relationship has been really... off lately. Very high highs and very low lows. An absolute bipolar relationship. Now this may be due to the fact that I have just been PMS beyond belief lately. And the kid is amazing for putting up with me for so long. (Five months and six days, to be exact.) But I honestly don't know how much longer he is going to hold on. I don't really know what to think of our relationship, seeings how it's my first real one, and I am planning on it being my last. Is that normal? I don't know. It just seems like whenever someone gets a shot at love, they hold on for dear life. The simplest upset can send someone's world crashing down because people are too careless and take love for granted. I for one, am not one of those people. And neither is Austin. We both realize that love is a very fragile thing, and that not very many people get the privilege of experiencing what we get to every day. And I would be absolutely devastated if that was taken away from me. He is such a sweetheart and my rock that keeps me standing when all I want to do is give up. But then I think... Is this how everyone feels in their first real relationship? I doubt it. Now onto topic four.

My Future.


I have been thinking about it so much lately. I was in St. George all weekend and the whole time, my grandpa was trying to talk me into going to Dixie college so I could live near them. It really got thinking about my options. I  have been severely unmotivated this year and have been letting my grades slip. And I have a feeling I am going to regret it in the long run. It makes me sick just thinking about it.


So there is just a little insight on what is going on in my life currently. I have an amazing life with amazing people in it, don't get me wrong. But a girl has got to vent every once in a while, right?