Day 10.

The first love.
Hmm. This is kind of a touchy subject. Not because it ended badly or anything, but because I'm not quite sure who it was? Wow. That sounds extremely skanky. Let me put it this way. My first "love" was my best best friend. So even though I did love him, I am not quite sure you can say it is the kind of love that every girl wants in this life. They say that the best relationships always come out of a great friendship. And I truly truly believe that. It's just that.. I was so young when all of this went down. So I don't think it necessarily counts as a first love. I will admit though, I had a crush on my best friend from pre-school, all the way until freshman year. Then things went down hill. He made some choices and hung around kids that I didn't want to be associated with. I tried being there for him, but he just made it so hard because I have always had my mind set on not ever putting myself in the situations that he was in. So I finally just... stopped. I didn't talk to him, I didn't see him, I just kind of gave up on him. Now of course, I had boyfriends and other crushes besides him throughout my entire pre-teen/teenage years, but he was always kind of the main focus. The one I would drop everything for. The one I trusted more then any other guy. And I struggled really bad letting him go. I still do. And I want to say that he was my first love, because I did love him. A lot. I just can't be sure that it was a "love love". It went on for so long, that I believe it was real, but we were both just so young that I don't think we were mature enough to feel those feelings for each other. Which leads me to where I am now. I am, in fact, one hundred percent sure that I love Austin. No doubt about it. But I am not quite sure he is my first love. But it is real, no question. So I'll leave this one up to you. Who was the first? Your call(:

The Professional PDA-ers.

An absolute pet peeve of mine:

PDA (Public Display of Affection)

Let's be honest here. Who really likes it? I can't stand walking down the halls at school, and almost getting caught in a game of kissing tag every time I turn a corner. It's disgusting. I mean maybe, and I use this word loosely, a little peck here or there is acceptable. But even that is pushing it. Really though. Are you really so deprived of feeling loved that you have to lower yourself to sucking your boyfriends face off in the school hallway? Let's get real. No one, and I mean NO ONE needs to kiss someone that badly. It's just not needed. I find it really funny that all the Professional PDA-ers are all from the same clique. (And I think we all know EXACTLY what clique I am talking about.) Obviously there is something wrong here. Either chill on the whole so-called "love on your boyfriend" stuff, or get a room. It makes you look bad, It makes everyone feel uncomfortable, and It's just plain nasty. So stop. kaythanks(:

ON ANOTHER NOTE.

today: was a good day. Not a phenomenal day, but it was a good day. got a lot done at drill, learned about sex in health, (which was NOT one of the brighter parts of my day), got to hear about how my seminary teacher was arrested on his mission for possession of an illegal weapon, (MOST DEFINITELY a brighter part of my day), more drill at lunch, and finished it off with a nice french class, (which, by the way, I found out I aced my final exam in). Just need to finish the loads of homework I have to do tonight, another three hour drill practice, and then its off to bed for Kalen. All in all, I'd say it was a very successful day(: